2003-06-09 at 1:57 p.m.
to chris
my urge to hear your voice is starting to over power my will to be a strong and independent woman.
and then i remember how the likely hood of you wanting to speak with me is only a shadow of my wanting to speak to you.
a mere shadow.
i wonder what happened to us.
the time we use to spend together was wonderful beyond measure. just having you near me made me happy.
but now things are different. oh, i still want to hear your voice. but it isn�t really your voice i want to hear.
it is the voice of the man i married.
the voice of the man i wanted to father my children.
someone, i fear, i may never get to converse with again.
but i hope and pray that when our addition comes into our lives, he will return.
to be the daddy i know he wants to be.
to be the husband i know i deserve.
and i promise i will never take him for granted again.
xoxo
tell me i'm beautiful...
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