2003-06-05 at 12:40 p.m.
sunday
sunday.
i can�t believe that chris might be leaving on sunday.
that only gives us 3 more days.
3 more days...
chris is suppose to find out today or tomorrow about a job in south carolina. and if the job is a go, then he will probably be leaving on sunday.
sunday.
i know he wants to work. i know there aren�t any jobs close to home. i know that this will be the best thing for us financially.
but i also know that i want him close to me.
i am going to have his baby.
maybe i am being irrational.
it won�t be forever.
sunday.
sunday.
sunday.
somehow i hope that day never comes.
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on a much lighter note...
i went to wal-mart yesterday and bought two baby bibs. the green one says �i love my grandma� and it has a rainbow and hearts on it and the blue one says �i�m grrrrreat! ask my grandpa!� and has a lion on it.
this is my plan...
i am going to wrap up the bibs and give them to my mom. of course i want my dad to be there when she opens it up. i am hoping jami will be home so she can join in on the surprise too!
i�m so excited!!!
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we had planned on telling both sets of grandparents-to-be on the same night. friday night after we go to the doctor.
but chris�s dad (paul d.) wants us to come down tonight to eat with them, so it looks like we will be telling them a little early. paul d. has to leave tomorrow on a run (he�s a long-haul truck driver).
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i haven�t said anything derogatory about chris going to work in south carolina. and this should come as a surprise to you. i usually cry and make a fuss whenever he leaves for a new job.
every time.
every single time.
and, yes.
i do have three more days until i break under the pressure and give in to my desire to fall at his feet and wrap my arms around his ankles while tears stream down my face.
but i hope i don�t break this time.
it�s time to grow up.
i will be okay.
right?
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tomorrow i will tell you of my superstition on buying a much needed new pair of birkenstock bostons.
i'm sure you can't wait!
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xoxo
tell me i'm beautiful...
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