01.20.2006 at 2:34 pm
last year this time
last year this time i was teaching some very difficult children. this time i have...i won't call them angels...because i know they are far from it. but in comparison... let's just say that there is NO comparison. i mean, i had a girl who brought POT into my classroom � (at least she didn't smoke it in there huh?), a boy to scream obscenities and threats at the POLICE while having his head stuck out of my classroom door (and then subsequently getting arrested), as well as a boy who decided to stick me with a safety pin just for kicks.
last year this time janie was orange. and i mean that LITERALLY. she was eating so many vegetables rich in beta carotene that her skin was turning orange. she really looked like she had a great tan for january. ...hmm... maybe if i eat more orange vegetables it will help out my pasty-white complection....
last year this time janie was just over a year old and sick. sick. sick. sick. sick. sick. i didn't think it would ever end. we went through antibiotics like water. i hope she NEVER has to experience being that sick for that long again. it all has to do with finding a doctor WHO KNOWS WHAT IN THE HECK HE'S DOING. apparently that was our problem, anyway.
last year this time janie was still crawling. yep. still crawling. she didn't start walking until Easter when she was 15 months old. i was SO worried about her. here i had a BEAUTIFUL child who couldn't (or wouldn't) speak or walk by the time she was 12 months old. and all i could hear was stories about how so-n-so's child was walking all over the place by 10 months and how blah-blah's kid was talking up a storm by the time he was 11 months. all it took was time. t�i�m�e. **yeah, she said her first word at 9 months, but that's really all i could get out of her. one word here and there, but that was it. I WANTED COMPELTE SENTENCES, DAMNIT! apparently i wanted to be able to hold a conversation with my one year old. which i have found out is still almost impossible with a two year old.
last year this time chris was working somewhere off. i don't even remember where. nor do i care to. because now he is HOME. exactly where i want him.
last year this time i was MISERABLE. for many many reasons. some i listed above, some i didn't. i left out SO much in my diary last year. SO much. i don't want to do that this year. i want to be able to look back and read about EVERYTHING that i did. even the sucky stuff.
like... being worried about the bridesmaid dress that my sister wants me to wear in her wedding. like... how that after being on a diet for 9 days, i have lost 4 pounds. like... how my best friend just had surgery and i hope she didn't make HUGE mistake. like... how i just found out that one of my friends from high school may be going through a divorce very soon...and this BLOWS MY FRIGGIN' MIND. like... well... i can't think of anymore right now....
so...i'll see ya'll monday!
xoxo
tell me i'm beautiful...
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