2003-09-15 at 10:07 a.m.
already
it feels like so many people are trying to convince me to quit work and go with chris.
why are they doing this to me?
i want to be with chris.
i need to be with chris.
i am not here in alabama because i want to be here. i am here because i have to be here. and until chris can get good insurance for me and the baby, there is no way i can leave... unless i am forced to.
chris leaving yesterday was so sad. he didn't want to leave. i sure as hell didn't want him to leave. we had such a wonderful weekend together. it flew by. before i knew it, it was sunday morning and time for him to leave.
i am hoping and praying so hard for this situation to get better. 850 miles is just too damn far away for him to be from me while i am pregnant. and it is sure as hell to far away for him to be from me and the baby once she is born.
*sigh*
but what else can we do but wait and see.
....
nothing.
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i think i have decided on a first name for our little girl.
isabelle.
the only drawback to using this name is that dang-blasted hurricane out in the atlantic. i just can't see myself naming a precious baby after something that has killed and maimed numerous people. so we are just going to have to see how the storm does, because i might have to pick out a new name.
but for now i want to name her isabelle. and call her belle for short. i love that name!
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chris couldn't call me last night because his cell phone battery died on the way up to virginia. i hope he made it okay. i just want to hear his voice and know that he's safe.
goodness gracious.
i sound like a mother already.
*giggle*
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xoxo
tell me i'm beautiful...
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