04.28.2006 at 2:09 pm
five years
the days turned into months, the months into years and now the years total five. five wonderful, life changing years as husband and wife.
he is my best friend. i am him biggest fan, and i like to believe that he is mine as well.
i was twenty-one and he was twenty-six when we got married. twenty-freakin'-one. i still can't believe it. at the time, i thought i was so old (because most 21 year-olds do, i believe, think that). i had already graduated college and it was time to get married. so, of course when he asked, i said yes. he was wonderful. and i loved him.
still do.
and he still is.
because to the depths of me, i long to love one person, with all my heart, my soul, my mind, my body...
because i need a forever friend to trust with the intimacies of me, who won't hold them against me, who loves me when i'm unlikable, who sees the small child in me, and who looks for the divine potential of me...
because i need to cuddle in the warmth of the night with someone who thanks God for me, with someone i feel blessed to hold...
because marriage means opportunity to grow in love in friendship...
because marriage is a discipline to be added to a list of achievements...
because marriages do not fail, people fail when they enter into marriage expecting another to make them whole...
because, knowing this, i promise myself to take full responsibility for my spiritual, mental and physical wholeness.
i create me, i take half of the responsibility for my marriage. together we create our marriage...
because with this understanding the possibilities are limitless.
in the past five years we have been through more than i could even type here. more than i would ever want to, actually. but it was worth it. every tear. every headache. every single swear.
all worth it.
to be where we are now.
xoxo
tell me i'm beautiful...
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