11.17.2005 at 12:27 pm
later on
i have thought having another baby. i have frequently thought about this. and i have always come to the same conclusion. later on. when we have a bigger house. after janie is potty trained. when i KNOW that chris's job isn't going to take him to tim-buck-too.
yesterday i was telling a friend of mine about jami's recent engagement. it seemed like every other sentence started with "my sister..." i immensely enjoy telling people about my sister. she's my sister, what more can i say? i love her.
and i want janie to have that same feeling when she grows up. to be a big sister. to know that there is at least one other person who understands. (because there are MANY times in my life that i feel ONLY jami understands). to help her little sister learn from janie's mistakes so that she doesn�t have to make as many of her own (or at east not the same one's janie is bound to make). to be there to argue with over who is the smart one, the pretty one, the better one...
i remember fighting with jami when we were growing up. but i also remember us playing together constantly. we had such a good time. even though at the time i didn't think i really wanted a little sister. she was SUCH an annoyance. (remember, i was 4 when she was born...so i thought she was a nuisance for about 10 years). i actually remember being afraid of the drain in our bathtub as a child and putting a little water in the tub and getting jami to sit in it. then i pulled the plug. when she didn't get washed down with the bath water, i was like, "okay, if she doesn't get sucked down the drain there is no way i can get sucked down there..." and i promise...i'm NOT making that up. :)
it's sad that you don't really appreciate your siblings until you grow up.
but it warms my heart to know that i have her.
i am really glad she didn't get sucked down the drain. that would have been horrible, not to mention that my momma would have KILLED me. and what do i say now about having another baby?
later on....
xoxo
tell me i'm beautiful...
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